First and foremost, lemme apologise…. I’m sorry.
Why?
Cos this entry is gonna be sad. And full of angst…
Its pouring like crazy outside… Maybe the sky is crying on my behalf.
So wanna cry out loud. Cry and cry and let everything out.
I didn’t get it. Rejected. Unsuccessful. No.
At first, i didn’t know how to feel when i read the email. Until someone asked me if i was ok. Then it all came crashing down.
I really dunno how i’m gonna survive. It really scares me.
I was thrown into that lonely hole. All alone. I thought i could climb out of it. I tried my best. I guess i didn’t try hard enough. So, now, the gate is closed and i have to stay in that hole.
I’m trying very very hard to think in the positive light regarding this whole issue. But everything is just so cloudy. I feel as if i’m doomed. And now, i’m really really left alone.
Its gonna be a tough run. A struggle. Bah.
Why? Why? Why? And should i continue to be persistant with the school? Argh…
